A few years ago, I desperately wanted a new car. I had the
CRV in my sights. I manifested getting this car. I thought they were so cute…and
different from what I had been driving my whole life. The day came…I got an
awesome deal on a lease…first time ever leasing (and last). I was so pumped up
about finally getting my car that I didn’t even focus on what I liked about it.
I named the car Derek. Over the course of the year and half I had Derek, I realized that I had no love towards it. The outside was beautiful…but
the inside was boring. I grew to hate that car…even though there was nothing
overall terrible about it. It just wasn’t for me.
The point of this story is that I went on a date...his name
is Derek. I was instantly excited about
him. He actually asked questions and seemed interested in my answers. We talked
for hours with no lapse…and he was super cute. And then, he asked to meet me
(yes, I met him online). He suggested the dog park…another plus…he is a dog
lover.
The day came to meet him. It was over one hundred degrees
outside and we are going to a dog park. How do you look cute for this? As soon
as I walk outside, I will sweat my bangs out…they get curly…believe me, it’s
not attractive. But, I stayed positive. I threw on cute shorts and a tank top
(and lots of hairspray)… and drove to the park… and hoped that the name Derek was
not symbolic.
We said hello, hugged, and walked around. It was hard to
even focus though…there were millions of flies. They were everywhere. It was
like a plague. I started to become terrified that if I opened my mouth to talk,
one might fly in. Ugh! We tried to just keep moving...but nothing worked. You
would have thought there were rotting carcasses lying around the park. We
started to look like crazy people…smacking ourselves, and dancing around. All
of this, I found funny. Apparently he didn’t. He hit himself in the face pretty
good…I laughed (maybe bad timing?). He shook it off and we walked to the cars. (Don't worry, he seemed to walk fine. He didn't hit himself that hard). He
said he needed to "get out of these flies". Understandable!
The entire date lasted 27 minutes. I didn’t even realize I
had signed up for speed dating. It was awkward, nothing like our phone
conversations. I walked to my car (by myself) very confused…How did that date
go? No clue!
He had asked me what my schedule was like this week. He said
next time we will do something inside. He said he would call me. Maybe, it is soon…but I haven’t heard from him.
And the truth is...I’m okay with it. I just want something more. I want to feel
excited about the car, even after I drive it. (No, this is not a sex analogy...but if it were, I would say the same thing).
And then, it hit me. He is like my CRV. Exciting and new and
pretty to look at…but boring inside. He came to the park and left his humor at
home. Maybe he was tired (he said he had worked 32 days straight). Maybe he wasn’t attracted to me (although my
pictures are pretty accurate online).
Or, Maybe, it wasn’t actually him
that I talked to on the phone…. Maybe he is the face? Maybe, the guy I actually
talked to on the phone was too embarrassed to meet me, because he has some kind
of weird growth or something…and so he sends Derek to represent him in person.
There are just so many ‘maybe’s’!
Whatever it was, the point is that I want something more! I
want more than a reliable car with power windows, and a pretty exterior. I want
something with power and corky-ness (like secret compartments). I just don’t want another Derek.
Ugh, Dating!
It was an interesting realization! Correct me if I'm wrong, but I think you fell out of love with your CRV. You just bought your car, right? So, are you planning on getting yourself a new car?
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